Now I say, "I'm 26."

It is honestly the weirdest thing for me to think about being in my mid-twenties. I don't even know how to feel or think about it. I don't look or feel like I am even close to being the age that I am. As a matter of fact, I feel like I have regressed in years instead of getting older and more mature. I think that I have just become more and more like a kid in these past couple years. I think the fact that people still tell me that I look like I am  17-21. I actually got carded recently when buying a scratcher at 7-11. The lady at the counter didn't believe me when I told her I was old. But, at this point in my life I don't mind being called much younger than I actually am.

Anyway, so I hate birthdays. I mean I really don't like having a birthday. Don't get me wrong I like presents, parties, friends and stuff but the attention is really hard for me to handle and there are lots of crazy things that always happened around my birthday that were not very good. So, every year around my birthday no matter how cool the party is I always seemed to get depressed and I think this is the first year that I began to realize why. It all stems from not understand or knowing how to receive love from others. I don't really know completely why that is but I think it has helped me to recognize why I like to be alone around that time. It is all a learning process and I know that in this next year I will probably grow more in that area, or at least attempt to.

It was weird being 25 and it is even weirder being 26 but I am glad that I God did so many things in my life this last year and it will be interesting to see what He does in this coming year. I still struggle with the same things that I did when i turned 25 and I still have a huge vision for the community that I am working in but my goal this year is to take one day at a time. I don't want to rush into anything and i don't want to take on a whole bunch of things that could weigh me down. I want to do only what I need to do and nothing more. I know right!!! A simple yet Ridiculous idea. We'll see how well I do this next year.

B.